Day 44

I still haven't had a period and have started feeling the fatigue that comes with being pregnant.  Not a lot of nausea but if I don't eat frequently I get really lightheaded.  It's so hard to let myself feel anything.  I don't want to get too excited, but I don't want to be emotionally detached.  I really want another baby but I don't want to experience the pain of another miscarriage.  Life can be lost so easily but the imprint on a mother's heart goes deep.  I pray that everything is going well inside my womb right now.  Maybe I should wait until I take a test that isn't invalid before I allow myself to believe it's real...